I am currently single and have been for the last three years. After my last relationship ended, I promised myself that I wouldn’t get into another until I was COMPLETELY over it. Well…I have been completely, 100%, so very far over that “ship” for quite some time and it has sailed!!! So why am I still single? Because there was some other things that needed to take place too. The most important things being, I had to find me and then learn to love me. Now that I have found and love who I am, I find myself asking, “Do I really want to be in another relationship?” Do I really want to risk my drama and care free, non-stressful, though unromantic, single life, just to invest an abundant amount of energy and emotion into another being? Is there any guarantee that I will be as happy, or happier, than I am now and my heart will never be broken? Ok, there’s a good possibility (because of the person I’ve become) that my heart won’t be broken again (in terms of a relationship). BUT, I’m sure a “ship” will bring me some type of stress and disappointment because we’re only human. I have to say (for the most part) I do want to be in a relationship again someday, but why? Why would I even entertain the thought of taking a chance on someone else, considering my past relationships? Possibly, I believe that all those failed attempts at what I thought was love were preparing me for the future. And I guess I believe that maybe, just maybe, there is someone who was made especially for me. A MAN, who I will find to be worth all the risks and who will make all of my previous questions irrelevant. Until then...
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
To Be...or Not To Be?
I am currently single and have been for the last three years. After my last relationship ended, I promised myself that I wouldn’t get into another until I was COMPLETELY over it. Well…I have been completely, 100%, so very far over that “ship” for quite some time and it has sailed!!! So why am I still single? Because there was some other things that needed to take place too. The most important things being, I had to find me and then learn to love me. Now that I have found and love who I am, I find myself asking, “Do I really want to be in another relationship?” Do I really want to risk my drama and care free, non-stressful, though unromantic, single life, just to invest an abundant amount of energy and emotion into another being? Is there any guarantee that I will be as happy, or happier, than I am now and my heart will never be broken? Ok, there’s a good possibility (because of the person I’ve become) that my heart won’t be broken again (in terms of a relationship). BUT, I’m sure a “ship” will bring me some type of stress and disappointment because we’re only human. I have to say (for the most part) I do want to be in a relationship again someday, but why? Why would I even entertain the thought of taking a chance on someone else, considering my past relationships? Possibly, I believe that all those failed attempts at what I thought was love were preparing me for the future. And I guess I believe that maybe, just maybe, there is someone who was made especially for me. A MAN, who I will find to be worth all the risks and who will make all of my previous questions irrelevant. Until then...
