Disconnected

I am in my hometown for the moment but I'm happy to say that I'll be heading back to Florida tomorrow. We came home to visit my grandmother for her 65th birthday...it was nice but I'm anxious to leave Johnson City. I found myself riding around town today and a feeling of sadness came over me. I felt so emotionally distant from Johnson City and it really doesn't feel like home anymore...I actually feel very out of place. It's bittersweet! It's good because it means that I really love where I live now. It's bad because it seems like my hometown should always feel like home...instead, when I visit I'm counting the days until I leave. A big part of it may be because I don't have my own place here anymore so when I come into town I have to stay at my mother's. Either way, I'm never eager to stay an ample amount of time in JC. It seems surreal that God would distance me from my family so much that I don't even feel connected to them anymore. What's stranger is that I feel perfectly content with things being the way that they are. If anyone would have told me a few years ago that I would be living in Florida I wouldn't have believed it. Sometimes I just step back and say, "Wow! I live 10 hours away from my family!" I'm so happy and grateful for how far God has brought me. The last 10 years I've grown tremendously! I'm excited to see what the next 10 bring...it's time to put all this knowledge into action! I know my family misses me and the kids a lot but right now I'm exactly where God wants me to be. And...I'm happy!!