Full Blown

Today is the first day that I've experienced TOTAL homesickness. I knew it would eventually rear it's ugly head but I didn't think it would come so suddenly. Nostalgia just popped up on me out of the blue. I woke up feeling tired so maybe the exhaustion played a role. I don't know exactly what triggered me being homesick but everytime I do something it seems to get worse. I combed the girls hair this morning and it made me miss TT (the lady who braided their hair every week). I washed the dishes and I missed so badly my old kitchen (I loved that kitchen!) I looked out the window and I missed the leaves changing colors and the cool air of autumn. The kids were bickering all morning which made me miss my family and getting a break whenever I needed it. Getting ready for church made me miss my church family. I got a phone call from the most amazing person who has great qualities and is close to perfect but my heart still remains with my first and only true love. And as I write this blog I can imagine myself sitting at my desk in my old apartment when I first started it. Ahhh the memories...the familiarity. I've been trying to remember all morning exactly why I moved here. I don't doubt that it was meant for me to move but I was truly happy in JC. Did I want more in life? Yes! Was it monotanous? Yes! But I was happy. I think no matter where I live and how happy I am, I'm bound to get a little stir crazy every once and a while and desire a change. Although I can't see myself living away from Johnson City forever, it was important for me to move away and experience life somewhere else. So here I am...still truly happy but yearning for the things of the past.