I'm Dreading It!!!

Let me start by saying that I don't believe in diets! Of course, I believe we should eat food in moderation (too much of anything is bad for you). But I refuse to deny myself any food simply because of weight. Therefore, it's time I get up off my butt and start working out, or something. I've gained almost 30 pounds in the last 2 years and boy am I feeling it. Not only do my clothes not fit anymore but I'm beginning to feel uncomfortable in my body. But only because I can tell how unhealthy I am. Some people have told me, "Oh you're are not big at all!" On the other hand, most of the people closest to me, who know what size I used to be, have mentioned my weight gain. I've heard many "you're gettin big" comments. It's something I already know but the comments are becoming more and more frequent. So I'm determined to start exercising at the gym and, at the very least, tone my body. I really love to eat so I'm not sure if I'll drop too many pounds but certainly I'll be in better shape. Hopefully I can soon get back into some of my favorite clothes. I have a jean fetish and have a ton of jeans but nowadays when I put them on, I cant seem to get that Chingy song outta my head.

Act Like A Lady...

I must admit that I didn't think this book would be a good read but I was pleasantly surprised at Steve Harvey's honesty and bluntness. Most of the topics in the book I have already learned...the hard way (I wish I could've read this book about 10 years ago). But there was one particular chapter about introducing your children to potential mates that I found very informative and beneficial. The book is filled with a lot of other great info to be learned as well. No matter the situation, I think all women should read this book (especially young females). Of course, the book is all Steve Harvey's opinion and he's no dating expert or anything. Still, I have a sneaking suspicion that he has exposed some truth about men. I'm sure there will be some that will wish this book was never written.

For Him

Why have I been given this peace? I'm remembering the last few years and I'm reminded of the storm. Such a terrible storm...there were times when I truly believed that I wouldn't make it through. The days were so cloudy. The sky was so grey. The nights were so dark. I didn't think the sun would ever rise again. My heart was so heavy. All I could give You were my tears. It took everything in me to wear a smile on my face. A smile...even though it felt like I was dying inside. I can't even count the times that I said, "How long will this last?" and "Please let my tears be enough!" The whole time I knew that You were making me stronger. Still, I just wanted to be delivered. When I complained of my anguish, You reminded me of the troubles of Job. And when my heart grew impatient, You reminded me that it took Moses 40 years to make it to the promised land. You did give me rest in the eye of the storm when I needed it the most. But You also let me know that it wasn't over yet. The storm lasted so long that I became accustomed to the conditions. I thought it would always be my life. I thought surely You had left me. But then the sun started to shine...the winds gently blew...the clouds disappeared. And I was like...where's the trouble? Where's the pain? But I didn't really want to know...My prayers had been answered.

Help me to just enjoy this calm. Please let me not focus on when the next storm will come. Thank you for my trouble! And thank you for my tears! Now I know...they were enough.